Jenna Dewan and Channing Tatum shocked many last year when they announced their decision to split after nearly nine years of marriage.
But before that, there came a moment in their relationship when Dewan said she just knew that things weren’t right.
“I’d come to realize the dynamic I was in wasn’t serving me nor was it serving my daughter,” Dewan, a dancer and actor, wrote in her new book, “Gracefully You: Finding Beauty and Balance in the Everyday,” according to People.
“First and foremost I had to accept the realization this isn’t working and had moved into hurting,” Dewan said.
Dewan and Tatum kept their separation secret for a while, though it involved Dewan having to answer media questions about her then-estranged husband while she filmed the second season of the “World of Dance.” She later filed for divorce.
“In the beginning of my separation, it felt as though I were in a dark closet, desperately trying to find the light or the way out,” she wrote. “I was in a state of shock. One week I’d be doing really well and the next I was slammed with a whole new slew of emotions.”
Things got even tougher when Dewan discovered that Tatum was dating singer Jessie J ― something she said she found out about online.
“I was learning things about my ex most people wouldn’t have to face ― and over the internet, as it was happening,” Dewan wrote. “There I was, on a plane, alone, finding out about his new relationship. I felt blindsided. Choosing grace as I learned everything about my personal situation along with the rest of the world was really difficult.”
Tatum and Jessie J are still dating. Dewan has found love again with her Broadway star boyfriend, Steve Kazee.
Dewan and Kazee recently announced that they’re expecting their first child together after more than a year of dating. This will be Kazee’s first. Dewan shares a 6-year-old daughter with Tatum.