*By Sreemoyee Piu Kundu
Usha Sharma (name changed on request) has been married for 12 years. She's 35 and has been trying for children for over five years—a process that she confesses has taken the excitement and intimacy out of her relationship with her banker beau, making sex dull, always on schedule, accompanied by boring doctor visits and bitter pills and a timetable-like precision of intercourse.
The boredom of constant travelling that she has to undergo as a busy marketing professional, coupled with the rigours of life in Mumbai, has taken a toll on her as a person too. "All around me, women are having affairs. They are so bored with the static and stagnant nature of their marriages or the lack of an emotional and physical connect, post kids," says Usha who bumped into a man five years her junior at an overseas marketing conference a year back.
It was a one-night stand, but God knows I needed it. I have no regrets, and haven't told my husband... I won't break up my marriage just for some great sex. Usha Sharma (name changed)
"It was an instant attraction. And I couldn't take my eyes off him. I had stopped feeling this rush with my husband for years and even though ours had been a love marriage, over time and especially since my mother-in-law moved in, it was pretty much just responsibilities and the rigmarole of balancing work and life."
She adds, "We got talking at lunch, and were from the same MBA college and had a lot in common. We exchanged numbers and post lunch, we couldn't keep our fingers off the phone. We decided to meet for drinks and one thing led to another and we had a night of just fabulous sex." She says of their night together: "It was like fireworks and apart from the most stimulating conversation, it was like being desired for being a woman—something I had forgotten with my hubby. I could actually tell Sparsh (name changed) what I wanted in bed and we weren't afraid of pushing our boundaries." But, says Usha, both of them were clear that they weren't interested in giving their chemistry the label of a relationship. "We never added each other on social media, and I blocked him the minute I got back home. It was a one-night stand, but God knows I needed it. I have no regrets, and haven't told my husband either... and while I miss Sparsh, I won't break up my marriage just for some great sex."
Unlike a lot of Indian women who are raised on a morally puritanical diet of pati parmeshwar and sati savitri, Usha probably unveils one of the other aspects of modern Indian marriages—one that involves cheating partners and zero emotional baggage or excess guilt. In Usha's case, she is clear that her fling has helped her overcome her sexual inertia.
In 2014, Ashley Madison, a global dating website for those who are married or already in a relationship was launched in India and conducted a survey that startlingly revealed that 76% of Indian women and 61% of men don't think that infidelity is a sin or is immoral. What's more, 81% of men and 68% women claimed that their affair has had a positive effect on their marriage. "We have around 2.75 lakh Indian users without doing any marketing," says Christoph Kreamer, European communications director, AshleyMadison.com. The dating service makes it clear that it doesn't promote extra-marital hook-ups but hopes to enable married Indians who are seeking "safe and discreet online opportunities to have affairs like their peers in the US and Japan."
I had casual sex with a woman I met on Facebook... there was no pressure to take it to the next level. Pradeep Nair (name changed)
In a fast-paced digital world, where intimacy is about giving in to physical urges and getting rid of boredom in conventional relationships, Pradeep Nair (name changed on request), a 45-year-old married man says a one-night stand is like a breath of fresh air. "In India, a lot of marriages these days are open, and people are quite accepting of morality being a personal choice. Also dating apps and WhatsApp and other free chat services have made it easier to hook up. I had casual sex with a woman I met on Facebook and once both of us were clear that it was just hormones, there was no pressure to take it to the next level," he admits.
One can't help but wonder if a one-night stand can be forgiven in a marriage and if there is truly any guarantee that it will not escalate into a full-blown affair that will corrode a long standing relationship. Also, let's face it, adultery—be it in our society or in our scriptures—is always condemned as a cardinal sin, and indeed as something that may warrant legal punishment. And yet, can sex be just pleasure (with "permission" in some cases) and not necessarily be burdened with the label of promiscuity?
*Sreemoyee Piu Kundu is the author of Faraway Music, Sita's Curse and You've Got The Wrong Girl! She's also a columnist who writes on issues related to gender and sexuality.
This article first appeared on Bonobology.com.